Butterflies, Butterflies & Tears of a Former Hopeful
Leo O.B.
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The first poem is about the anxiety I experience, more specifically social anxiety. I describe the main feeling of it, and how I wished it would go away. I say how it's always there and try to ignore it or "get over it" but I simply can't. I wish I could know exactly why it's there or how to get rid of it, if only it was as easy as getting a surgery and it's gone then I'm fine, but it's not. Anxiety is much more complicated than that. It is felt in almost every aspect of my life. It is the thing that never truly leaves me, but now I have learned a little how to exist with it.
The second poem is about, mostly how some events in the last few years of my life have made me feel like I have lost a big part of myself. Including the pandemic, and other events have made me change a lot, and sometimes I wish I was the little naive kid I used to be. I talk about for a long time it felt like there would be no end to a certain hopelessness I felt. At the end I do mention I found hope once again in the ocean of sadness I once felt. It's mainly about the feeling of losing oneself and wishing to have that back.
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Art, and expressing myself as well as exploring myself through it, is very impactful to my life because it is the one thing that has helped me get through many hard times and process difficult experiences. Art is there if I'm down, helps me heal, and get back up. It's always been there for me.
