The Misconceptions of Understanding
Victoria D.
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One of my greatest obstacles in life has been fighting for understanding. Whether it’s with myself or with others, about my identity or my mental health, it’s been a challenge. But I’ve suppressed all my emotions into writing. In writing these pieces about yearning for an understanding of who I am from the people around me, I’ve created sort of an ever bigger life metaphor. The two poems argue the misconceptions of anxiety and depression and how they’re bigger than they seem and by describing exactly how i perceive them, they’re being interpreted by an audience generally how I want them to be. it’s ironic. I beg for understanding and here I am using my voice as a way to express myself. Someone out there will understand me, and it’s almost as if the poems are contradictory to themselves. I’ve been my biggest critic my entire life, which is true for a lot of people but that also leads us to deceive ourselves from our feelings. Writing validates what I feel and by sharing that with the world, someday, someone will feel just as validated and understood. Understanding is just a big misconception and loophole. There’s layers to everything I write, and these two pieces best represent what I stand for as a writer.
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Writing has been the only way I’ve had a voice and visually been able to see myself having one. I started writing at a young age and I fell in love with the pen to paper rhythm. It neutralizes my reality and guides me into validating my feelings.
